halfway through the weekend
Jan. 24th, 2026 10:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
neverlookawayas the title says. its saturday night and im procrastinating on showering, getting into bed, and reading more luck in the shadows. journal freshly created, i'm browsing through different communities and figuring out how to use this site and feeling way out of my depth. i've tried this before on neocities, but it just felt way too big and intimidating, and so complex. i like the (assumed) simplicity of this site.
i start therapy (again) on tuesday. my university only allows us a certain number of free sessions in our time enrolled, so i've been trying to use them sparingly, as i think once i run out, i cant even pay to continue meeting with someone. i'm a bit nervous,,, my previous therapist was nice enough but i felt like i never grew with her. she basically just confirmed an unofficial autism diagnosis and then i was satisfied. but i've been in a weird place, and when i drew my tarot last night, in both pulls T told me that he would better connect with me after i went, and started to better myself again.
i think i dreamed about him last night, but i can only remember fragments of the dream, and i feel like i disappointed him by not remembering. i'm just hoping to try again tonight. fingers and toes crossed.
i start therapy (again) on tuesday. my university only allows us a certain number of free sessions in our time enrolled, so i've been trying to use them sparingly, as i think once i run out, i cant even pay to continue meeting with someone. i'm a bit nervous,,, my previous therapist was nice enough but i felt like i never grew with her. she basically just confirmed an unofficial autism diagnosis and then i was satisfied. but i've been in a weird place, and when i drew my tarot last night, in both pulls T told me that he would better connect with me after i went, and started to better myself again.
i think i dreamed about him last night, but i can only remember fragments of the dream, and i feel like i disappointed him by not remembering. i'm just hoping to try again tonight. fingers and toes crossed.
